Volume 2 ~ Issue 1

Volume 2 ~ Issue 1

Poppy writes:

Dear Heidi,

I have been thinking alot about my experience in 1999 and have been intently trying to find out the truth about it this past year. And then I came upon your site and read about the Shadow people. This is my experience:

My headboard is against a wall with a very large picture window to the left of the bed. There was always a street lamp light on all night and it kept my bedroom semi lit, enough to see the shadows of objects in my room. One night as I was drifting into sleep, I felt a sudden stillness in my room. I can't describe the feeling quite well, except to say that there was dead air and the air was very cold, and felt different.

I was trying to open my eyes and felt I couldn't, that I was moving in slow motion. When I managed to pry my eyes open, I couldnt' believe how dark my room was. ( I am shaking recalling what happened.)

I looked to my left to find light from my window, but it was not there; my room was pitch black, an impossibility! Then I saw it move. A shadow figure was blocking the window and quickly flew to the wall. It hovered above in the air on the wall. It was swaying, its coat was swaying almost as if it was caught in a breeze.

It was large, cloaked, with a hat. I think I saw the hatman shadow. It's head seemed smaller than its' larger body. It just stood there staring at me. I felt like it was going to attack me. I was terrified. But I couldnt' move, or scream. I felt like it was controlling me. Already smothering me from afar, like i was pinned to my bed.

I tried to look over to my right where my dog was sleeping, and I tried to call out to her, but I couldn't speak. Then the shadow jumped directly on top of me. It pounced on me so fast, and I closed my eyes. It was on top of me, choking me, it was heavy, it was holding my entire body down. I couldn't even move my eyes. I couldn't breathe, and then I felt it try to sexually assault me. I am embarrased to say this, but I felt like it raped me, penetrated me. And i tried to fight it off me, I struggled with all my might and with all the force within me, I managed to push it off of me.

I immediately grabbed my dog and she appeared to be asleep and unshakable. This was unlike her as she's very attentive about me. I shook her and managed to scream out her name to wake her up so i wouldn't be alone, or feel I was sleeping and having a nightmare. When my dog awoke, with me hugging her tight, i looked around the room and there it was, still sitting on the wall. This time it was smaller, like it shrunk in height and width. I just thought it might attack me again.

I know it sounds silly, but I tried to get my dog to notice it but she didn't. And it just hovered on the wall. I got really scared once again and hid under the covers praying to god and crying to make it go away. I didn't know what to do. About 5 mins or so later, I sensed it was gone. I looked up under the covers and the room was normal again. I could see the window, the room wasn't as dark, the air had warmed up, it was gone.

I however have not been normal, and I still need to find out answers to what I encountered. What it did to me, and why I feel changed and most importantly violated. My question is will it return? And why it visits certain people, how it picks who to terrrorize?

Has anybody else been violated by one of these, and what if anything did it do to me? When I told my friend about this, she said it was most likely a ghost, an incubbus that sits on peoples chest, and tries to have sex with humans, and its harmless. What I can say for sure is I felt that it was harmful and forceful. Could you please help me to understand more about the Shadow people??

Please respond, I don't know where to find information about what I encountered.

Thank you so much Heidi, Poppy

Heidi responds:

Hello Poppy,

Your invasive encounter truly touched and disturbed me and my heart goes out to you for what this creature did. You asked directly if this has happened to other people just as you have described and I will be as blunt to answer, yes indeed it has - unfortunately.

It does sound much like what I describe on my Shadows site located at www.Shadows.UFO2U.com, as the Hat Man Shadow. They are sometimes seen with a cape, hat or without either and just the shape of a man.

The most common of attacks from these creatures are of them jumping on their victim and choking them as they sleep. I suspect rape is also a large part of this ordeal, but few people are eager to mention this seemingly embarrassing information. Rape and the like are more commonly heard in regard to more solid alien creatures like the reptilians or Grays. But since the Shadows are directly related to these other two beings, their motives and actions do not surprise me by being so similar.

More information about the Shadows and their relations to aliens can be seen on my main site at www.UFO2U.com and my book content described there.

You mentioned also that you don't feel the same after this encounter and I would like to know more details on this if you care to share more. But if its anything a rape victim feels, your feelings are completely understood.

Personally I think rape from these types of beings goes up a level from the physical because these beings have this uncanny ability to touch a part of your soul. This way you not only feel different from the outside-in, but the inside-out as well.

I wish your friend was right about these creatures being "harmless" but I don't see how anything that has the ability to violate you as "harmless." "Incubbus" is a nice term for "demon."

To see a movie based on a woman that dealt with what you did, but on a regular basis, rent "The Entity." It's based on a true story of a so-called "ghost" that raped a woman repeatedly-(so yes they can come back but you can refuse this-more on this later). I just think they understated what exactly this thing was in the movie, Shadows love to be misjudged and underestimated.

Now you asked also how these Shadows choose their victims, well that can be a bit complicated. They'll go for anyone basically, and usually like to hide like cowards in the dark while you sleep so you are less capable to fight them off.

As for how they get access to tap into you as they seem to have done to you and so many others, they steal. Meaning, they steal your agreement from you so that in some form you complied. I know that doesn't sound like it makes any sense and I think I need to lend more time to this subject since it's such a common question I get my way.

I'm stretching this edition to its end, so I'll continue and go into this a bit more in the next posting so I don't lose some folks here in being too brief on this important issue.

Hope this helped in finding some answers for you and it seems your inquiry will help bring more attention to what these beings do to get access to you...I'll be going into more detail on this very soon.

P.S. I don't think it's silly you tried to get your dog to notice either, we all like to find some validation that what we are seeing is real. Plenty of people have done similar things including Whitley Strieber, you can read his book "Communion" where he picks up his cat to take it along during an alien abduction. Poor thing was traumatized, might be best your dog didn't notice.